anger management

I was having a good Tuesday morning until I read her e-mail. Things went downhill from there. I really wanted to strangle her but then I realized - why should I be mad? True, she ruined my day and the most logical thing to do is to ruin hers as well. Hence, the response:

WML,

I clearly recall mentioning and strongly emphasizing during our discussion yesterday that the file you're requesting is not yet finalized. I am still awaiting several inputs from Finance to complete it. In fact, I was hesitant to give you a copy but you said, and I quote, that you only needed the revenue portion. In any case, I sent you the draft with a note reminding you of my caveat.

So don't go around sending me an e-mail, telling me that our numbers do not match. For the most obvious reason, you should have expected that our bottom line and consequently, the YTD figures won't tally - because there were missing numbers on my file which I have told you in the first place, for several times. But you still had to notify me, and enumerate, wasteful as it may be, the discrepancies.

Attached is the updated file for your reference.

Good day.

It's always good to have an emotional punching bag, a live voodoo doll, or just about anyone whom you can unleash your pent up frustration and wrath on whenever you feel like blowing up. I know it was rather petty. Unfortunately, she chose to tick me off when my stress level has reached new, unimaginable heights. Then again I must have sensed some form of hostility from her because I wouldn't normally lash out on those whom I deem innocent. Besides, stupidity should be scorned at.

Nevertheless, after a few minutes, I felt terrible. I still am.

As much as I wish I wasn't, I'm still learning. I can't not act out against people. But I'm trying.