when you love someone like that

MakMak: I think it was me. It must have been me. I guess I did something wrong.
MakMak: I tried too hard, wanted too much. I guess that's why he's gone.
MakMak: I lost my pride. I fought and cried.
MakMak: I felt like a little kid. What's wrong with me? I still can't believe I did the things I did.
MakMak: I couldn't change him. He was gonna break my heart. I saw it coming.
MakMak: Yeah, I knew it from the start but...

Lola Yeba!: Hey, it ain't right. It just ain't right. Don't tell yourself that it was you.
Lola Yeba!: You followed your heart. You gave it your best.
Lola Yeba!: There's nothing more you can do.
Lola Yeba!: Guys like him are like the wind.
Lola Yeba!: And you know it's just too bad - they blow in and out again and never know what they had.
Lola Yeba!: Dude, I can tell you he'll do the same to someone else.
Lola Yeba!: It ain't about you. So don't be so hard on yourself.

Lola Yeba!: We've all loved and lost. It has happened to us all.
MakMak: I hear what you're saying but I feel like the only one.
Lola Yeba!: You might feel that way but you're not.

Lola Yeba!: You're alright.
MakMak: I'm alright.
Lola Yeba!: You're ok.
MakMak: I'm ok.
Lola Yeba!: You're gonna make it anyway.
MakMak: Yeah.

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It was one of those tracks that remain unplayed on my iPod until it got selected randomly by the player. The timing couldn't have been any more perfect as it was on that day that I silently bid farewell to whatever it is Daine and I have.

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J: Musta Mak.
J: Suplado.
MakMak: Pauwi na ako. Ikaw kaya una kong tinext pagdating ko from Palawan. Suplado ka jan.
J: Bakit ang bilis. Umuwi ka lang?
MakMak: Hindi. Lunes talaga uwi namin. Hay... huling hatid ko na to sa kanya.
J: Ok na yun. At least makakatulog ka na. :-)
MakMak: Nalulungkot ako. Naluluha pa ata ako dito sa jeep. ;(
J: Again. That's love. Relax ka lang at try mo matulog.
MakMak: Para akong naglayas o pinalayas sa bahay sa hitsura ko. Hay... Buti dala ko yung eye glasses ko.
J: Ehehe. Baka nabasted :-) Ikaw mismo nagsabi enough. Pero sa tingin ko hindi pa rin.
MakMak: ... Salamat ha! *Hikbi*

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Like a child, I've lived on hope for so long.

And I don't want to go another mile wearing a fake smile.

But I fear that in the end, I will always come back to him.

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The words used in in this entry are actually the lyrics to the song of the same title.

I just wish someone sang this to me sooner.

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When you love somone like that. When you give what you can't take back. When you love with all your heart and soul. It's so hard to let it go.
- LeAnn Rimes & Reba McEntire, When You Love Someone Like That