somewhere on the outside (i hate mondays)

It's hard to explain. Inherently, it's just always been strange. Neither here nor there. Always somewhat out of place everywhere. Ambiguous. Without a sense of belonging to touch. Somewhat halfway. Feeling there's no one completely the same.
- Mariah Carey, Outside

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It's hard to wear a smile and pretend that everything's alright when they're not.

But it's a lot harder to continuously call out, "who's gonna talk to me on the phone till the sun comes up" when you honestly know that nobody's out there to answer back.

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I don't know what came over and I suddenly became temperamental. (Not that the anything today was worth being celebrated.)

Probably because it's Monday.